Decline.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

May Allah bless in each breath I breathe. Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, La ilaha illallah, Allahuakbar. Peace be upon Rasulullah SAW.

Nothing much to say. Hey, before I forgot. Assalamu'alaikum, readers!

I was on my way back to mahallah from my skills class. As I walk alone on the pathway, I often thinking these and those. Monologue with myself. So-called daydreaming. But it was not! I wasn't dreaming about something nonsenses. 

Suddenly, my heart decline to say, "He's not 'the one'..". Then I realized, I said those unconsciously. Maybe Allah was giving me answer for my istikharah all this while.

And yeah, my heart doesn't feel like it was before. When I say his name, it won't be some kind of uneasy feeling. What can I say is, there's nothing!

I'm not sure whether this is temporary or permanent. But if this is the answer, I accept wholeheartedly. 'Redha', that's the word.

I won't regret for wasting my nine years of waiting, as I believe in fate. 'Jodoh' also stated in our qada' and qadar. 'The one' will come, when it is the correct time and situation.

But if, 'the one' is still him, then again, it is JODOH.

I'm not going to make any statement nor decision, let Allah do that for me.

As for now, I'll be keep smiling.

*smile :)